Friday, July 2, 2010

why Jesus prayed may they all be One

Should I be afraid? Jesus wondered.

I answered. ''Not if you are who I think you are.'' I raised my voice. ''You should listen too. You'll learn something.''

In response there was a harsh growl close to where we lay; the room was filled with a fetid odor. A wave of cold terror struck Jesus in the chest.

His body trembled, but he felt my hand on his shoulder. ''Steady. Ignore him, and listen. You already know that God is everywhere. But you haven't take the next step, which is why you wandered the face of the earth until you found me. I am here to give you the knowledge that will provide the final release. If God is everywhere, he is in you. If he is in you, then you are everywhere. Do you understand?''

Jesus trembled as if struck by a terrible fit, my words had struck deep. He no longer heard me speaking, but someone did. The voice of God had been absent for many months. Now it returned again, only this time it was also Jesus's voice, the two so blended that they couldn't be told apart.

"You cannot change the world as long as you are a person. As one man, you will never escape the war between good and evil."

At this the intruder growled menacingly, and Jesus saw two eyes glowing red in the dark. But the threat was useless. The voice continued.

"Only someone who knows the reality between good and evil can know me. I am in all things, without division. This Satan wants you to believe that he rules a place where I am not. But even he is made of God."

The glowing red eyes darted closed, and when they were directly over Jesus, they shot fire. The voice went on, "The Adversary doesn't want anyone to know this, because it would destroy his power. He can hardly admit it to himself. If he is God, the war between us comes to an end, and he thrives on war."

Suddenly the intruder emitted a deafening shriek. The walls of the hut shook. Tears rolled down Jesus's cheeks. I whispered close his ear. ''The final stroke must come from you. It can never be taught, only discovered within. Keep listening.''

Jesus regained control with difficulty. The voice waited and then it said, ''Only someone who can see the demons as part of God is free. Good and evil dissolve. The veil drops away, and all you see is divine light - inside, outside, everywhere. The sight of a rotting corpse becomes as blessed as a rainbow. There is no reality but the light, and you are that light. Your soul is the world's soul. In your resurrection will be the resurrection of the world.''

°°Deepak Chopra - Jesus A Story of Enlightenment (fragments from)°°

Friday, May 21, 2010

Brownie 1.....

.......it's been raining so freaking hard today after you were buried, it doesn't make my heart anymore lighter. I've missed you ever since, so terribly I don't even know if this feeling's real.

I'm sure you are happy in that special place already, but I don't think it's gonna be easy for me to find happiness after this lost.

Love you, G.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

dancing in life...

...i dont wanna miss even one song, coz all too soon the clock will strike midnight
and the feast'll be over.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

............darn

i really miss my aplyc friends. i literally dont come often again with my comrades filly (who lives near my house btw, but our work hours never match to each other so in the end its like decades ago that we dont bump to each other, tsk) and ranny whos miles away in papua now.

ive got tons of ideas for the lsyouth inside my head but i just cant seem to get it out cos i cant work on it alone and the youngs are just like...impossible to get on their own a$$!!!!! tsk

Friday, September 4, 2009




















i'm not surprised, not everything lasts
have broken my heart so many times, i stopped keepin track
talk myself in, i talk myself out
i get all worked up then i let myself

i tried so very hard not to lose it
i came up with a million excuses
i thought i thought of every possibility

and i now someday that it'll all turn out
you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
and i promised you kid that i'll give so much more than i get
i just haven't met you yet

i might have to wait, i'll never give up
i guess it's half time, and the other half's luck
where ever you are, whenever it's right
you'll come out of nowhere and into my

and i know that we can be so amazing
and baby your love is gonna change me
and now i can see every possibility

they say all's fair in love and war
but i won't need to fight it we'll get it by to be

i said Love, i just haven't met you yet

Thursday, August 20, 2009

mah playlist.....music's never been so yumm....!

1. Mr. Hudson ft. Kanye West - Supernova
Let me be your supernova before you make the biggest mistake of your life, just give me the chance to get it right


2. The Virgins - Rich Girls
We'll walk around prentending we're all grown up....is that the way I see the world?

3. Backstreet Boys - Straight Through My Heart (Soldier Down)
I can't be hit, I just can't escape this love

4. Katy Perry - Waking Up In Vegas
Don't call your mother cause now we're partners in crime

5. Cobra Starship ft. Leighton Meester - Good Girls Gone Bad
You heard that I was trouble but you couldn't resist...


6. David Cook - Come Back To Me
You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you

You say you're leaving as you look away
I know there's really nothing left to say
Just know I'm here whenever you need me I'll wait for you

So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

Take your time, I won't go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

And I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me

I can't get close if you're not there
I can't get inside if there's no soul there
I can't face you, I can't save you
It's something you'll have to do

So I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
When you find you, come back to me


7. Mika - We Are Golden
Waking up in the midday sun, what's to live for?

8. Parachute - She Is Love
(lyrics are kinda shabby but I like the song anyway)

9. Jack's Mannequin - La La Lie
Guess what? I'm done

10. Train - Hey, Soul Sister
Your sweet moonbeam, the smell of you in every single dream I dream
I knew when we collided, you're the one I have decided who's one of my kind


11. Hellogoodbye - When We First Met
As I kept track of every haircut that we ever had I could, I could see how long it had been