fragment from an exist journal

Jan 16
23something PM

O Lord,
this love is yours
it came from you
dan bila ia mau dan Kau berkenan
cinta ini bisa kembali padaMu.

Tapi untuk saat ini, detik ini
karena ia masih berada denganku
biarkanlah
I live with it
breathe it, run with it
tertawa dan tersenyum untuknya
dance with it
and

-pardon me-

terkadang menangis.

Karenanya.

Christ the Lord - The Road to Cana

Random quotes from the book.

Christ: "Manusia menghina apa yang tidak mampu mereka raih. Mereka menderita karena sangat menginginkannya."

Christ: "I AM for the world."
Gracie: "O Lord, I'm in love with the world. It gave me a place to be."

"Thus the Lord's voice presents not within the wind.
The Lord's voice presents not within sands, sun nor stars.
It is inside of me.
For long I have known who I really AM - I AM the LORD,
and I have chosen to not knowing it.
Now I know what it means to become a man
who also knows that he IS the LORD."

Christ to Simon Peter: "Nothing should be the same again. Don't expect the other way around."

on change....

...i should buy a blue pen.

I'm using black now, and just realised how dull it looks like.

*sigh*

all in a day's work...

1. I came in at 9.05 - my boss gave me a big applause *grinning*
2. I sms-ed my exboy for a "lunch date" - he didn't reply. There I broke a pact, set my heart free, and fullfilled my 1st 2009 resolution. YES!
3. I dl-ed 3 songs while drafting on 3 different emails...he-he.
4. AC guys came in, our office is MUCH COOLER now....thank God for them!
5. I finally closed up a Euro 1,622 booking, yay!
6. Fenny came in at 10.30, my boss certainly jumped on her, but she still managed to be calm and show her *innocent* look - gosh I need to learn a lot from her ;)
7. one Macchi guy is giving us a helloutta time - even until the time I'm typing this down. darn!
8. my boss is selling his 21" TV for Rp500.000 - oh, Fenny is soooooo gonna buy it!
9. my boss also selling his Windows98 Acer laptop for Rp500.000 - i was soooo gonna buy it with installment (he-he), but...we'll see! Figure: a new year present for my littlest sister....ooooooooo......*cooing*
10. I'm still here at 7.48 PM, typing whatever that's coming to my mind, d'oh!
11. HEY, haven't you heard????? I BROKE A PACT, I SET MY HEART FREE, and I'VE FULFILLED MY 1ST 2009 RESOLUTIONNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you, thank you everybody...! - oh wait, especially you, dude! Though I think you'll never gonna read this anyway. lol!

ooo lookie here....

the 1st post in 2009....!!!!!!






*not to mention today I've fulfilled my 1st 2009, yeeaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! *

last post of 2008.....!!!!

if you happen to hop on this post, kindly share with me your 2009 Resolution, will you?

I'll be posting mine on the 3rd of January....for now, this is the only one I can share with you today:

My 1st resolution, and it should be settled tonight before time turns 2009, is to resolute with my dear friend Vincencius Tobing regarding my past.

He's agreed to make up the time -- I shall write about it in this blog accordingly :)

All my best wishes for 2009, dear Brothers and Sisters!!!!

What is your Treasure?

-originally written in my journal Dec 30, 2008 0824PM-

...been thinking to write something about Treasure, don't know why - perhaps as I myself think that I'm still on the search for my treasure.

Jesus said, wherever your treasure is, there also your heart will be.

This is irritating for me.
Since I don't know what my Treasure is.
If there should exist a Treasure for me,
then it should be fit that my Treasure would want to be find, shouldn't it?

Then how would you identify your treasure?
How would you find out that - out there - there's a Treasure waiting for you to be find?
would you run a Manuscripts research for it, as scholars do?
would you look up with your telescope to the open Universe, as astronomers do?
or would you plunge yourself into the Sea, dive deeper and longer...as divers do?
would you bet on everything you own now, for that little something more, just like gamblers do?
There are far too many options, too many roads.

I believe Treasure Hunters find their ways
or - if destiny permits - they forge their own ways.
I myself like to imagine myself as Santiago;
for so many das I think I know what I want,
but now I'm beginning to think that somehow
I should put myself to Sleep.

Then hopefully
Destiny will appear to as the Dream;
the One Dream that would encourage my heart to no longer fold its wings.
And when my hear flies o seek for my Treasure.....
perhaps, too -
I will wake up.
Wake up and realize,

that my Heart is my Treasure
and It has been with me always.