whatever that means...

...that it's might just an illusion of the heart.

so you gotta.....SWIM!

You've gotta swim
Swim for your life
Swim for the music
That saves you
When you're not so sure you'll survive
You gotta swim
And swim when it hurts
The whole world is watching
You haven't come this far
To fall off the earth
The currents will pull you
Away from your love
Just keep your head above

I found a tidal wave
Begging to tear down the dawn
Memories like bullets
They fired at me from a gun
A crack in the armor
I swim to brighter days
Despite the absence of sun
Choking on salt water
I'm not giving in
I swim

You gotta swim
Through nights that won't end
Swim for your families
Your lovers your sisters
And brothers and friends
Yeah you've gotta swim
Through wars without cause
Swim for the lost politicians
Who don't see their greed as a flaw

The currents will pull us
Away from our love
Just keep your head above

I found a tidal wave
Begging to tear down the dawn
Memories like bullets
They fired at me from a gun
Cracking me open now
I swim for brighter days
Despite the absence of sun
Choking on salt water
I'm not giving in
Well I'm not giving in
I swim

You gotta swim
Swim in the dark
There's no shame in drifting
Feel the tide shifting and wait for the spark
Yeah you've gotta swim
Don't let yourself sink
Just find the horizon
I promise you it's not as far as you think
The currents will drag us away from our love
Just keep your head above
Just keep your head above
Swim
Just keep your head above
Swim, swim
Just keep your head above
Swim


~Jack's Mannequin, Swim, from the album The Glass Passenger~

why the violence...?

so you can.....

- write-----to people: your boss, your president, your religious leaders, to the media, your "wakil rakyat" (hah!), to Oprah (well...who knows?), to your children (or grand children), to your lover, to God, or even to yourself. A lot of times people might not pay attention, but the whole universe is watching you know....
BUT don't write on people's heart using grief.

- believe-----in your family, your country, your faith, your angels, your saints, your god, yourself....
BUT don't believe to the calling for sanctity that demands others' life.

- paint------on canvas, on sand,on paper, on glass, on wood, on the walls (wherever you're permitted to do it), on ice....
BUT don't paint on people's heart with blood.

- sing------about your life, your sadness, your happiness, about angels, your family, your faith, your country, your pet, your best friend, your job, your loneliness, about God, your mistake, your achievements, your love, about anything....
BUT don't sing it to my face with terror on your face.

- pray------about absolutely everything....
BUT why need to pray to a god who vouch for hatred?

- light up candles for the night, or fireworks to lit the sky, or firecrackers if you like it louder....
BUT NOT bombs!! because they make the night even darker, the sky even paler, and the world even more silent.

So I write, I believe,
I paint, I sing,
I pray,
I light up candles....
....for those life who'd been taken mercilessly
....for their families to still take heart
....for you, whoever you who did it,
I pray that God forgive your reason, whatever it is.

oh, wow...

...what a quote

" you just cannot claim a person, there's enough prisoners in the world already"

found randomly on the net

so after standing in line for appr. 30 minutes....

....this is what I got.....


ta-da!
















N row, well guess I have to live with that....:-<

grab your tickets now, boys and gals! but dont even bother queueing for today's show, not a chance for even a single seat!

best of luck tomorrow ;)

today...

...am so pissed of myself upon realising that i haven't changed at all, not even a bit.


oh you, the past, go away!


(or should i go away?)